Taking a line from Beyoncé, Rolling Stonetagged its latest cover girl, Rihanna, as being "crazy in love." That may be because for one of the first times ever — aside from her revealing sit down with talk show queen Oprah Winfrey – the Unapologetic songstress directly addresses the road to rekindling her highly-publicized love affair with controversial singer Chris Brown. The feature, shot by past RiRi collaborator Terry Richardson, shows a subtler side of the Barbadian beauty, a stark contrast from her nudeGQ spread, seven Complex magazine covers, and last cheeky Rolling Stone cover. But the real salacious find here is not her tame captures, but the revelation that she's giving Brown a second chance as long as he doesn't revert back to the behavior that escalated during their 2009 blowout and subsequent assault charges. A few of the award-winning Roc Nation star's excerpts from the in-depth interview are below.
On not being able to let her relationship with Brown go:
I wanted him to know what it felt like to lose me. To feel the consequences of that. But I got real with myself, and I just couldn't bury the way I felt.
On ignoring the bad publicity she's received from letting Brown back in her life:
After being tormented for so many years, being angry and dark, I'd rather just live my truth and take the backlash. I can handle it.
On the public's misconception of her and Brown's current status:
When you add up the pieces from the outside, it's not the cutest puzzle in the world. You see us walking somewhere, driving somewhere, in the studio, in the club, and you think you know. But it's different now. We don't have those types of arguments anymore. We talk about [stuff]. We value each other. We know exactly what we have now, and we don't want to lost that.
On Brown not being the bad guy:
For a long time he was really angry, and he felt like he couldn't get away from it, no matter what he did. But there's so many reasons why I ever reconsidered having him in my life. He's not the monster everybody thinks. He's a good person. He has a fantastic hear. He's giving and loving. And he's fun to be around. That's what I love about him — he always makes me laugh. All I want to do is laugh, really — and I do that with him.
On setting the record straight:
Listen, I'll tell you right now: I don't have to take it. If he gives me that again, here's what I give him: nothing. I just walk away. He doesn't have that luxury of ***** up again. That's just not an option. I can't say that nothing else will go wrong. But I'm pretty solid in knowing that he's disgusted by that. And I wouldn't have gone this far if I ever thought that was a possibility.