Hilary Duff is getting refreshingly honest about what it’s like to be working mom. In a lengthy and emotional Instagram post, the 31-year-old Younger actress revealed that after six months, she’s no longer breastfeeding her daughter, Banks.
“I am a working mom of two,” Duff wrote alongside a photo of her in the midst of breastfeeding Banks. “My goal was to get my little girl to six months and then decide if I (and her of course) wanted to keep going.”
“Let me tell you. Pumping at work sucks,” she continued, “I had zero downtime and am usually pumping in a hair and makeup trailer while four hands work to get me ready for the next scene with lots of other people around. Even if I had the luxury to be in my own room, it’s not even considered a ‘break’ because you have to sit upright for the milk to flow into the bottles!”
She went on to explain that because she’d had to pump rather than breastfeed Banks, her milk supply dwindled. With her first son, Luca (who is now seven), Duff didn’t have this issue, as she wasn’t working for the first nine months of his life.
But as is the case with many mothers, Duff’s second child was a very different experience, and breastfeeding became more troublesome. She ultimately made the decision to stop breastfeeding, which she says was an extremely difficult one to make.
“I thought about it ALL day everyday. It was a constant loop in my head. Weighing the pros and cons,” Duff said. “I cried many times and felt so depressed while weening. I wasn’t myself at all. Something scary was hovering over my brain and my heart…the part of me that I know is smart and rational.”
Though Duff has closed the breastfeeding chapter with her daughter, she expressed her gratitude for the time they did have together. “[I] felt so lucky to be so close to her and give her that start. I know many women are not able to and for that I am sympathetic and very grateful that I could. For six wonderful months,” she says.
Fans in Duff’s comments section are overwhelmingly supportive, many telling her how important of a message this is for fellow mothers. “This is so spot on,” one wrote. “You’re amazing and you’re doing amazing!” said another.