Beyoncé just dropped her new Netflix documentary, Homecoming: A Film by Beyoncé. The title of the film is in reference to her return to the stage after giving birth to her twins, and it gives audiences a behind-the-scenes look of the singer’s legendary 2018 Coachella performance, while also revealing the the grueling process leading up to it.
“I’m creating my own homecoming and it’s hard,” she says in the documentary. “There were days that I thought I’d never be the same. I’d never be the same physically. My strength and endurance would never be the same.”
Determined to make her “homecoming” as impactful as ever, the 37-year-old megastar dedicated herself entirely to a grueling rehearsal schedule and fitness routine, but it’s her pre-Coachella diet that has fans most shocked. In the film, she explains that she went on a very restrictive diet in the months leading up to her performance. “In order for me to meet my goals, I’m limiting myself to no bread, no carbs, no sugar, no dairy, no meat, no fish, no alcohol — and I’m hungry,” she says.
Um, yeah. I would imagine! I’m hungry just writing that.
As a mother to newborn twins, she admited that getting herself back into shape was as much a mental challenge as a physical one. Beyoncé previously told Vogue that she was 218 pounds the day she gave birth to Rumi and Sir, adding that it took months to regain her mental health before she could start to prep for Coachella.
“In the beginning, there were so many muscle spasms and just internally, my body was not connected. My mind was not there,” she says in the film. “My mind wanted to be with my children. What people don’t see is the sacrifice.”
She continues: “It took me awhile to feel confident enough to freak it and give it my own personality.”
Clearly, her hard work paid off, but Bey made it clear that she’d never go to such extremes again. “I definitely pushed myself further than I knew I could and I learned a very valuable lesson,” she says. “I will never, never push myself that far again.”
The event was a huge moment for Beyoncé. Not only was she stepping back onto the stage, but she was the first black female performer to headline at Coachella, so her level of dedication makes sense. “As a black woman, I used to feel like the world wanted me to stay in my little box. And black woman often feel underestimated. I wanted us to be proud of not only the show, but the process. Proud of the struggle … I wanted everyone to feel thankful for their curves, their sass, their honesty – thankful for their freedom.”