In an interview with Attitude magazine, singer Kelly Clarkson opened up about weight loss, body image, and depression, revealing that she contemplated suicide early in her career after industry execs pressured her to lose weight.
“When I was really skinny, I wanted to kill myself. I was miserable, like, inside and out, for four years of my life. But, no one cared, because aesthetically you make sense,” she said. “It was a very dark time for me. I thought the only way out was quitting. I like wrecked my knees and my feet because all I would do is put in headphones and run. I was at the gym all the time.”
Following her stint on American Idol in 2002 and subsequent rise to fame, Clarkson says she was told to shed pounds while promoting her album Breakaway in 2004. It wasn’t until the release of My December in 2007 that she began to take control over her life and body.
“There’s a song on My December called ‘Sober’. There’s this line ‘picked the weeds but kept the flowers’ and I just live my life by that because you are who you surround yourself with,” she reveals. “I was around some really negative people, and I got out of it because I had a lot of great people there too. It was a case of turning around, facing them and walking toward the light.”
Clarkson has become an outspoken advocate for body positivity and self-acceptance, who expertly shut down a tweet calling her fat earlier this year.
Clarkson is just the latest celebrity to reveal that fame isn’t always all its cracked up to be. Last week, former Destiny’s Child member Michelle Williams discussed the depression and suicidal thoughts she struggled with while at the height of the band’s fame.