We’re constantly amazed at how even the most perfectly manicured of celebrities seem to harbor body insecurities just like ours, and despite her seemingly endless reservoir of confidence, Kim Kardashian is apparently a member of the club. On the most recent episode of Keeping Up With the Kardashians, she addressed the effect that a decade of the media’s obsession with her physique has had on her self-esteem, and, spoiler alert, it hasn’t exactly been great.
“You take pictures and people just body shame you,” she said. “It’s like literally giving me body dysmorphia.” She’s referring to Body Dysmorphic Disorder (BDD), an anxiety disorder characterized by a person’s obsessive idea that their appearance is flawed. The disorder is said to affect 1 in 50 people, or as many as 7.5 million people in the United States alone.
In the scene, which was filmed in April, Kardashian is discussing “unflattering” pictures taken of her while on vacation in Mexico. “I can’t have fun after seeing those pictures, there’s other pictures where I look so good and it’s just from a different angle,” she says. “I think people think I’m so confident, and I’m so secure, and I’m so this, and I’m not. Like, I’m so insecure. I just can’t take it.”
While it may be hard to admit, honestly, who among us can’t relate to seeing a bad picture of ourselves and feeling awful for days after? And while it’s sad that anyone has to experience this, many women may find comfort in the fact that even a sex symbol like Kim Kardashian has days when she doesn’t feel good about her body, so props to her for being open about her insecurities. It’s also worth remembering that celebrities are people too and that the things we say on the internet can have real consequences.